Wednesday, December 5, 2012

New York, will you wait for me?

So here I am, packing up to leave town again.  I haven’t even finished writing about my last trip, and now I’m about to head back to Taiwan.  I really fell into a blogging void during my time back in NYC, which is unfortunate because this visceral, aggressive, beautiful city delights and frustrates me on a daily basis.  But as we are about to be parted for the longest stretch yet I find myself only recalling the romance of the place, and the thrill of making it through each day here.

New York, I love your citizens.  I love the deli people who follow my breakfast whims.  Every few months those whims change.  Sometimes it’s an egg sandwich.  Sometimes I’ll go through a bagel streak.  These days, it’s just my morning coffee, small, light, no sugar.  But after a few days the deli people have got it down, and they serve it up as soon as I walk in, to the occasional dismay of the other customers ahead of me in line.  They don’t understand; they don’t have the same unspoken connection to the deli people that I do.  They can only dream.  We may be a surly bunch on occasion, but damn if we don’t take care of our locals.  I can’t help but think that only in New York would the wine store guy up the street actually tell me to call at closing time if I “need a few more minutes”.  Yup.  The wine store will hold the show for me.

New York, I love your artists.  Through connections and blatant pandering I have been involved in an amazing show for the past month.  Look, I’m not going to lie: it is a weird, specific aesthetic that gets me going.  It’s rare that I meet someone who says, “Oh yeah, I totally dig Weimar cabaret.  In fact, I just wrote one that pretty much fits in with all that you think about religion and politics.  Why don’t you perform in it?  Also, two of your best friends are involved in it too.  So, you know, come on down to Brooklyn.”  Yeah, I don’t get that a lot.  But in New York I do.  It’s probably going to have to sustain me for the next year.  What can I say?  Ich liebe The Brick. 

New York, I love your food.  You do sustain me.  In fact, you might be specifically calibrated to my personal brand of gluttony.  In one week I dined on world-changing pizza, soft shell crab in green curry (yes! More please!) , and fried chicken with a side of FRIED KALE.  Yes.  You read that right.  Fried kale.  It was delicious, and I have no regrets.  None.  Admittedly, I have been in dumpling withdrawal, but that’s my own fault.  I could get my albino ass down to Chinatown, I just haven’t managed to do it because I’m a lazy over-booker who’s looking ahead to a year of cheap nightmarket delights.  Is that considered taking the easy way out? 

New York, I love the family you’ve given me, blood-related or otherwise.  How have I managed to stumble across so many people who are willing to look past my absurdity?  I guess I credit you.  And here I lose words.  How do I describe the unbelievable people in my life?  How do I explain the endlessly engaging conversations?  How do I describe the wine-fueled nights of dancing?  Can I really do justice to Girls’ Night?  What words can I use to explain finally feeling safe?

 While in Taipei I took part in the traditional “Chinese Valentine’s Day Temple Visit”.  It involves an elaborate ritual of incense, candy, “ghost” money, tea, and prayer, and it is ultimately supposed to connect you with your soul mate.  I don’t really go in for prayers or soul mates, but I’m certainly not going to turn down a chance to participate in a local tradition.  And what the hell, it’s not like it’s going to hurt (furthermore, I got some neat souvenirs out of it.  And tea.  Which you aren’t supposed to blow on.)  During this process you pray to about 50 million gods.  And I still don’t know what all of those gods do.  The only one that stuck in my mind was the City God.  If I remember correctly, he was our first prayer stop, and he is the one mainly in charge of helping us find the people we’re supposed to be with; the people who will enrich our lives.  Perhaps you’ve already guessed that I adored this idea.  The essence of the metropolis gets to decide who we need to meet, and then works it’s magic to make that happen?  Sign me up.  I believe in the power of the city.  I certainly believe in the power of New York.  And I hope that it won’t forget me while I’m gone, that it will manage to keep me in mind as it charts the courses of all the broke, desperate, amazing people who find their only home here. 

New York, I love you.  You are my home, you are my family.  I’ll be back all too soon.  And I will still hate your public transportation system, but that’s as it should it be.  There has to be some imperfection, somewhere.  It can’t all be roses, unicorns and rainbows.   This isn’t a love story.  This is real life.